#2 Fallin'

It was funny if I remember when I was a child. My most difficult thing in this world just like sudden exams in the school. At least, physics test was a different difficult. But, yeah, the difficult things in this world at the time were not like this time. 

I think my life changes as the time goes. My difficult thing right now is falling in love with someone who doesn't love me back. What we call that? Hmm.. Unrequited Love?

It started when I was in first day in college. I sit down beside 'the girl' accidentally. At first, it was just like usual. We greet, tell our names, asking from where we come, yeah, it's so normal. Nothing special. But, the problems come when she gave her number to me. And I was like.. what? Hmm okay.. Yeah, little confused because we just talked like ten minutes. Ten minutes doesn't give us anything. It means, we are still stranger.

So, at night I tried to call her. Nothing in my mind at the time, except for fill the time. And.. after that we talked so much, I forgot how long I talk to her. But, that's the point. Talk to her make me feel like didn't care about the time anymore. Our conversation really really kills the time. And exactly, this is my type. I always looking for someone who can make me forgot the time by having a great conversation. From that night, I have been interested with her.

As the time passed, she and me have done many things together. We were so 'click' at many things. I decided to tell my feeling to her and wishing she has the same things in her deepest heart. That day came. The really 'fuckin' bad day. I did'nt know why, but suddenly she told me 'I have a boyfriend already'. And I just standing with no words, and my heart got angry like, 'Fuck you bitch. After this all we've done?'

And..... many days after that I always try to forget her from my mind and remove her from my heart. But until now, it doesn't work. I am too click on her. I feel like there is no someone in this world can feel my time just like she has done. Nobody can do that.

I wished, someday, she is my destiny, my soulmate. Yeah I'm just praying to the God, for making this all happened. You-who read this- please, help me. I'm fucked.