#3 Us

As the time passed, I ask myself frequently, "What's happened between us?"

I know you have a boyfriend, in a long distance relationship. But, why you keep caring on me? I never want it from someone like you. I want to ignore it, but you keep treat me like that. Why?

Do you want to make a subtitution of your 'far away' boyfriend with me?

No, no, no..

You don't know how it feel for being myself. I'm getting started for loving you after all you've done to me. Yeah, your kindness defeat my haughtiness. The problem is you're still in a very fuckin big love to your boyfriend.

I don't understand about our relationship. Caring like a couple. Protecting like a couple. Everything we've done are like a couple. But the reality is we are two people who spent time and chances together. 

It's hurt for me, actually. 

What I should do to forget you?

You don't want me to forget you, but you never give me a place in your heart. 

Yeah, I know. We are comfortable for what we are. But, where would this relationship take place?

#2 Fallin'

It was funny if I remember when I was a child. My most difficult thing in this world just like sudden exams in the school. At least, physics test was a different difficult. But, yeah, the difficult things in this world at the time were not like this time. 

I think my life changes as the time goes. My difficult thing right now is falling in love with someone who doesn't love me back. What we call that? Hmm.. Unrequited Love?

It started when I was in first day in college. I sit down beside 'the girl' accidentally. At first, it was just like usual. We greet, tell our names, asking from where we come, yeah, it's so normal. Nothing special. But, the problems come when she gave her number to me. And I was like.. what? Hmm okay.. Yeah, little confused because we just talked like ten minutes. Ten minutes doesn't give us anything. It means, we are still stranger.

So, at night I tried to call her. Nothing in my mind at the time, except for fill the time. And.. after that we talked so much, I forgot how long I talk to her. But, that's the point. Talk to her make me feel like didn't care about the time anymore. Our conversation really really kills the time. And exactly, this is my type. I always looking for someone who can make me forgot the time by having a great conversation. From that night, I have been interested with her.

As the time passed, she and me have done many things together. We were so 'click' at many things. I decided to tell my feeling to her and wishing she has the same things in her deepest heart. That day came. The really 'fuckin' bad day. I did'nt know why, but suddenly she told me 'I have a boyfriend already'. And I just standing with no words, and my heart got angry like, 'Fuck you bitch. After this all we've done?'

And..... many days after that I always try to forget her from my mind and remove her from my heart. But until now, it doesn't work. I am too click on her. I feel like there is no someone in this world can feel my time just like she has done. Nobody can do that.

I wished, someday, she is my destiny, my soulmate. Yeah I'm just praying to the God, for making this all happened. You-who read this- please, help me. I'm fucked.

#1 Introducing

Hi everyone! Welcome to my 2nd blog.

2nd? What's the 1st?

Yeah. My first blog has been created about 5 years ago, when I was in first grade in senior high school. That blog isn't like this, because that blog is written with my daily language. Yeah, I'm not an English boy of course. So, you have to understand if you read many wrong grammars here.

That blog is filled by crazy stories of mine. If the blog has genres, it would be a comedy. I'm so happy because that blog was famous enough. And...Why I started to create the second one, if i had the famous blog there? 

It because I need privacy in writing. Yeah. I need to write some private story. It could be big secrets, broken heart story, and other ashame story of mine. I don't have courage enough to tell that stories in my first blog. You gotta understand. It has been read for many people. So... I'm getting crazy if many people read that.

This second blog would be a perfect place to tell the world about my 'different' side. Yeah, people only know my 'comedy' side. They don't even know that I have a 'sentimental' side too. So here, you get those all!!!

You can read as much as you want. But, you'll never know who I am. And.. once again, welcome to my (second) blog! Happy reading, friends...